Ngl those old maps are so vague people can read anything they want into them. Honestly feels like that just helps the scam keep going.

And thats the whole shift right there, what @david_butler54 is talking about. I totally saw getting help as this big sign I had broken, like my own fault for not being tough enough. Changing my view to see it as just a tool, like susandixon said, changed everything. It's not a failing grade on being a person, its just using what works. The hardest part was letting go of that story I told myself about having to handle it all solo.