Yeah I read that strict rules actually build trust faster with the core members.

Didn't they just repave it like last month though?

Drove halfway across the country once to see an old friend and chickened out at a rest stop two hours from their place. Sat in my car for 45 minutes thinking about how awkward it would be after not talking for two years. Turned around and drove home. Never told them why I cancelled. They don't even know I was that close. Still feel like a jerk every time I see their name pop up on social media. Point is, you're not alone in making dumb decisions based on things your brain blows up way bigger than they are.